Thursday, August 30, 2007

I.

i don't like.

i dont like cockroaches. in whatever freaking form they are. dead or alive i despise them. big or small i hate them. male or female i dont like them. whether they mean literally or metaphorically i just dont. big, small, flat, tall, thin, brown, fair, dark, can fly, cannot fly i tak suka. i dont think they suka me also.. so it's a two way relationship. :) the oxford dictionary defines cockroaches as any of various flat brown insects. siew ying defines cockroach as a very ugly looking thing that creeps the living daylight out of me.

i dont like.

i also dont like "you" to break promises. it's ok if they promised to "belanja" me and they dont. it's ok if promised to go out with me but they dont because they just cant. it's also ok if they promised not to fart in front me and they did. BUT it's NOT ok if "you" promised "you" will look after me forever and "you" dont. it's not ok if "you" promised to treat me ice cream and "you" dont. it's not ok if "you" promised to buy me sweets and "you" dont. it's not ok if "you" promised to love me and "you" dont. it's not ok if "you" promised to be by my side when i need "you" and "you" ARE by her side. and it's not ok if "you" promised that she's your friend and now she's not.

i dont like.

BUT

i like.

i like "you" so much to the extend that i think i love "you". i love "you" so much to the extend that i think i reached the point of hatred. i hate "you" so much to the extend that i think it turned very painful. it's too much for my heart to take so i give up. but "you" wont go away. i'm letting "you" go but "you" wont go. "you" just dont seem to get out of my head. stubborn ass. it's been 2 years now. are "you" not done occupying my head and my heart?? will "you" go off already? please?

i like.

i like ice creams.

*i know it's cliche and i know many wrote about things like that but hey! i dont usually do this. how often do you get to read about my "love" life. right? so bare with it. let me post some cliche posts. any inconvenience caused is much regretted* :)

so, there is a conclusion to this very weird looking post that doesnt make shit sense to anyone.

summary.

i hate cockroach breaking promises and that i love you so much till i hate you and want you to go away when you already are away. it's been two years and i'm not over it.
there... easier to understand?? :)

screw cockroaches. screw love.

"omg! siew ying you are so emooooo.."
dont say that please. i'm wayyyyyy beyond emo. i'm emo-less. =.=


post that doesnt make much sense to anyone
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alexis at 8:02 AM