Sunday, June 25, 2006

yes. i've slept for 18 hours. long long 18 hours from yesterday's 3 pm till this morning 9 am. i have no idea why i slept for soooooo long. maybe it's because i'm too tired. or i was just trying to hide from something. i knew my phone rang. i knew messages came in. i knew that my mum was yelling ying! ying! from downstairs. i knew all of that. it's just that i was trying to ignore it. trying to get some sleep. yesterday was a big day for us. for the band. it was the day to show off according to sam. it was true. after all the long hours of training and the long hours under the bloody( mind my language) sun. we did so much and we got this far, and that was our time. our 12 minutes. after that it was going to be O-V-E-R. done! adios!! bye byee! we were so prepared. and then, it was our turn. we went and did what we can. that was the LONGEST 12 minutes ever. but it's over now. we did what we had to. and we did our best. we won.. no other band can beat our spirit and determination. nicely said by one of our band member. but i can't help it. i can't help feeling sad and dissappointed. i know crying is not going ot change anything. but how i wish it could. how i desperately wish it could. "siew ying. stop crying. we didn't lose. we did our best and we have no regrets k?" i totally agree with that. but i think i might need a little more time to get over this. it hurts badly. damm hell it does. but oh well, the oh-so mighty klang high won the thing. and catholic got second. ish... i rather catholic won first! but the main thing of me being so sad is not because we lost. it's because this is the last year of me being in the band and we couldn't create history. and i am even sadder cos i didn't prove it to my sister. but i think she'll start to recognise us. after all this trainings. she saw the differents between this year and last year.

i know... long and winding post. BORING~~ but i really needed to let this out. hey, peeps. remember the if poem we read in form four?? if you can meet with Triumph and Disaster and treat those two impostors just the same. yea those were taken from the poem. well, no offense to those who like this poem but i think this is bull crap. how can one treat success and failure the same?? are we no human? have we no feelings? well Mr-whoever- who-wrote-this i don't think you can do it too right? so for those who can do it, call me! i'll be waiting. i need help.

and for those who thinks that band is lame and so forth.. think again. i don't care what you people say ou there. but SSB ROCKS!!!!! to the max! due to the long hours under the sun, we now all have same skin colour. tanned. so.... ONE BAND-ONE SOUND-ONE SKIN COLOUR!! oh yea.....

ying's phylo for the day. " if you can't bare with the pain of losing, start working your ass off now." crap, that sounded rude. kk, again again. "if you can't bare with the pain of losing, start working your buttocks off now" there, that sounds better. so ppl, spm is coming. (sorry to mention) work hard now. we shall PLAY harder later.

peace out
-ying-

alexis at 7:36 AM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

i. hate. backstabbers!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously i do!! why back stab when u can just come forward to tell me in my face? i rather u doing that then to act like you are good friends wif me infront of my face and then go back stab me when i turn around... hello?? come on man..be a man ( or a woman, depending on what gender you are) do the right thing!! have some guts and come on to my face and let it out... it'll do both of me and you good!!! at least we can try settling the problem.. right?? so stop doing that peeps!! it's really irritating when u need to hear someone telling you what so and so said about u.. it's like. can't so and so just say it to my face?? instead of doing all this shit?? ish........ when u come and say it to my face.. you syok i pun syok! so!!! please lah...

peace out (yah~~)
-ying-

alexis at 6:06 AM

Friday, June 09, 2006

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yup! that's all for today... =)

oooooo, how can i forget. siew ying's phylosophy for the day "appreciate your sleeping time and school holidays, it's so precious..SERIOUSLY" kk, that's all!! buh byeeee....

peace out
-ying-

alexis at 4:00 AM

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

why not me?? i always ask myself this question..don't you?
why is she friends with so and so and not me?
why does he likes another girl but not me?
why is he/she so smart but not me?
why does the teacher likes them more but not me?
why are some people so rich but not me?
why are some people so lucky but not me?
it may seems that siew ying...you ah....you should be thankful for what you have... but this is not the case...( but for the rich and lucky part i don't really mean it cos i AM thankful of that..)

sometimes in life, things might not go as well as you've planned....the one thing that you've wanted all along might not be your's but belongs to someone else even they don't want it...yesterday i said to myself..the more you want it the more it'll not be...so yesterday i said to god..i'll just wait till tomorrow and see how things gradually work out. i don't want to put too high hopes on it cos im afraid that i will get disappointed too much.... so i woke up in the morning...eventually i forgot all about it already....but SOMEBODY had to go bring it out and crush my heart...although i said i didn't put too much hope to it..but still...i was crushedd..but more on disappointed and sad..i'm sad not because i wasn't chosen..im sad because i was not the first one in mind to be chosen.. infact, he picked those whom he fancy only..and guess what?? after all the things i've done, he almost forgotten me..until i show up infront of him...this part of the whole thing made me disappointed and heart broken...but i kept quiet..and to be honest..actually i didn't for it at the first place..if i insisted, things might be different now..but oh well, i can't ask for anything else now can't i? so i'll jus live with it...all i need is time....=) humans can get used to anything......as long as given enough time...

okie okie..here goes my phylosophy for the day.."if you think you deserve more than you are deserving now, go fight for it, don't hesitate" but i didn't say that you should always do that, it's just that when you think that u REALLY deserve more, then you should really voice out...in a peaceful way though...not literally go "fight" for it lah......

kk, im done...hee...

peace out
-ying-

alexis at 4:07 AM

Monday, June 05, 2006

update update!!!! okie okie.... lets see...i remember my password lah..its jus that i was kinda a little bit NOT much just a lil(hehe) lazy that's all...and if u want to test me whether i remember my password or not, well i remember it perfectly well!! its...... hah! u think im gonna tell u?? hmm??? if u wanna know u can go ask kwan yi, she knows..wait!! don't ask her....cause she knows...heee...anyways, enough of crap..lets move on..

lets see...last thursday(i think) krys's family went on vacation, and since she didn't follow them, she gets to sleep over at my house!! ahaha...btw, because of that, mum made me wash the toilet...darn u krystle!!!!! haha. just kidding lah..kk, back to the sleepover thingy..oh yah!! lesley came over too!! it was great fun! except for the i-didn't-get-to-sleep part, i'll let u guys know about that later.. k, they came over at the afternoon and we went out, as in out to one utama. guess who fetched us there?? andrew... ahah. for those of u who don't know him, he just got his license..and he drove us to one utama!! ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways, we didn't hang out there for long cause the oh-so-brilliant siew ying here(ahem) had to go for tuition at 5..so we got back to taipan from one-u in 20 mins..( i tell u, he was speeding like nobody;s business okay....='S ) but im okie...haha... went for a drink(it was still early), donated some money to this la salle dude, went for tuition..bla bla bla...end of tuition!! krys and les was waiting for me at mcd's and then my dad came and pick us up and we went home!! as in my home!! hee.. mum cooked dinner, and they ate at my house..after that we made flower, den we played speed(lesley.....aihz..haha), den we played jenga!!!! as in the one where you stack up the wooden blocks and see how high can u stack it before it falls kinda game?? get me?? anyways, it was sooooo much fun!!! haha, although there were alot of shouting involved..ahaha...then after that we went over to krys's house..( she stays next door by the way) and then we played cards again...happy family..haha....den we watched tv...then we came back to my house...then we were eating again...muahahaha....and then we went upstairs....and we were talking...and talking..and talking...and talking....and u know what?? we were still talking....haha....krys slept for a while, so lesley and i went online to check out some stuffs, and oh yah!! how can i miss that out?? we were also talking!! and then krys woke up! when lesley was about to sleep...(ish.....) then lesley went to bed, it was six in the morning by the way...then i teman-ed krys, we went downstairs and we watched Fairy Odd Parents. haha... and then it was seven we all got ready and we went off to school for band practice....eeeeee!!! no.sleep.at.all!!! but it was fun.. hee...=D

after band, we went to sunway pyramid.......with andrew's car.....again....we watched over the hedge...such a cute show..... STELLA!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha...it was cute...after that it was walking and walking and then we went home again, and we had dinner at my house again...THANKS mum!! for the good food!! haha...

that's about it....we had sooo much fun!! really hope that we can do this again someday...soon....
ahh...i went back to seremban again the next day....(bahh....) oh oh, phylosophy for the day!! errr...."A REAL FRIENDWILL TELL YOU WHEN YOU HAVE SPINACH STUCK IN YOUR TEETH" really.......

okay okay, im done..off i go..

peace out
-ying-

alexis at 4:27 AM