Sunday, June 25, 2006

yes. i've slept for 18 hours. long long 18 hours from yesterday's 3 pm till this morning 9 am. i have no idea why i slept for soooooo long. maybe it's because i'm too tired. or i was just trying to hide from something. i knew my phone rang. i knew messages came in. i knew that my mum was yelling ying! ying! from downstairs. i knew all of that. it's just that i was trying to ignore it. trying to get some sleep. yesterday was a big day for us. for the band. it was the day to show off according to sam. it was true. after all the long hours of training and the long hours under the bloody( mind my language) sun. we did so much and we got this far, and that was our time. our 12 minutes. after that it was going to be O-V-E-R. done! adios!! bye byee! we were so prepared. and then, it was our turn. we went and did what we can. that was the LONGEST 12 minutes ever. but it's over now. we did what we had to. and we did our best. we won.. no other band can beat our spirit and determination. nicely said by one of our band member. but i can't help it. i can't help feeling sad and dissappointed. i know crying is not going ot change anything. but how i wish it could. how i desperately wish it could. "siew ying. stop crying. we didn't lose. we did our best and we have no regrets k?" i totally agree with that. but i think i might need a little more time to get over this. it hurts badly. damm hell it does. but oh well, the oh-so mighty klang high won the thing. and catholic got second. ish... i rather catholic won first! but the main thing of me being so sad is not because we lost. it's because this is the last year of me being in the band and we couldn't create history. and i am even sadder cos i didn't prove it to my sister. but i think she'll start to recognise us. after all this trainings. she saw the differents between this year and last year.

i know... long and winding post. BORING~~ but i really needed to let this out. hey, peeps. remember the if poem we read in form four?? if you can meet with Triumph and Disaster and treat those two impostors just the same. yea those were taken from the poem. well, no offense to those who like this poem but i think this is bull crap. how can one treat success and failure the same?? are we no human? have we no feelings? well Mr-whoever- who-wrote-this i don't think you can do it too right? so for those who can do it, call me! i'll be waiting. i need help.

and for those who thinks that band is lame and so forth.. think again. i don't care what you people say ou there. but SSB ROCKS!!!!! to the max! due to the long hours under the sun, we now all have same skin colour. tanned. so.... ONE BAND-ONE SOUND-ONE SKIN COLOUR!! oh yea.....

ying's phylo for the day. " if you can't bare with the pain of losing, start working your ass off now." crap, that sounded rude. kk, again again. "if you can't bare with the pain of losing, start working your buttocks off now" there, that sounds better. so ppl, spm is coming. (sorry to mention) work hard now. we shall PLAY harder later.

peace out
-ying-

alexis at 7:36 AM