Wednesday, June 07, 2006

why not me?? i always ask myself this question..don't you?
why is she friends with so and so and not me?
why does he likes another girl but not me?
why is he/she so smart but not me?
why does the teacher likes them more but not me?
why are some people so rich but not me?
why are some people so lucky but not me?
it may seems that siew ying...you ah....you should be thankful for what you have... but this is not the case...( but for the rich and lucky part i don't really mean it cos i AM thankful of that..)

sometimes in life, things might not go as well as you've planned....the one thing that you've wanted all along might not be your's but belongs to someone else even they don't want it...yesterday i said to myself..the more you want it the more it'll not be...so yesterday i said to god..i'll just wait till tomorrow and see how things gradually work out. i don't want to put too high hopes on it cos im afraid that i will get disappointed too much.... so i woke up in the morning...eventually i forgot all about it already....but SOMEBODY had to go bring it out and crush my heart...although i said i didn't put too much hope to it..but still...i was crushedd..but more on disappointed and sad..i'm sad not because i wasn't chosen..im sad because i was not the first one in mind to be chosen.. infact, he picked those whom he fancy only..and guess what?? after all the things i've done, he almost forgotten me..until i show up infront of him...this part of the whole thing made me disappointed and heart broken...but i kept quiet..and to be honest..actually i didn't for it at the first place..if i insisted, things might be different now..but oh well, i can't ask for anything else now can't i? so i'll jus live with it...all i need is time....=) humans can get used to anything......as long as given enough time...

okie okie..here goes my phylosophy for the day.."if you think you deserve more than you are deserving now, go fight for it, don't hesitate" but i didn't say that you should always do that, it's just that when you think that u REALLY deserve more, then you should really voice out...in a peaceful way though...not literally go "fight" for it lah......

kk, im done...hee...

peace out
-ying-

alexis at 4:07 AM